Late night talks and conversations
But I never thought to tell you the one thing in my heart
Spilling secrets and memories, you got the best of me
It wasn't too long and we were running in circles so I moved on
I found someone else and I fell in love
Believing she was the one
Through all the happiness and hurt there you were at the back of my mind
Wishing now I had tried a little harder maybe now it'd be a little easier to say hi without missing you
As with the years, my love faded in the background
But I never could forget your face
And there's so many things if only you knew
Now its a little too late and I'm out of time
There'
I met you on a summer's day
The wind was blowing your hair all around your face
Right then I felt my heart hit the floor
You picked it up and gave it back to me
And I fell in love, I fell in love
When I was 21
Every time I closed my eyes you were right there in my dreams
We had some good times and some were bad
Hurtful words, shameful tears and silly fights
But we always seemed okay in the end,
Yeah I thought we were alright
When I was 21
Seasons changed and so did we
But all the turmoil and heart ache couldn't keep us apart
So we were left to fight our demons alone in the dark
And even then we wouldn't give up, no I couldn't
baby of mine, smile again
let your eyes shine that pretty blue
wrap your hand around my finger, i'd do anything for you
and if you cry, i'll dry your tears
listen to my heart beat and fall asleep
have no fears, i'm right here
sometimes i lay awake and watch you dream
i put my ear close to you, listening to you breathe
imagining the world you're seeing behind closed lids
i count your eyelashes one by one as you grin
your forehead wrinkles, you're starting to wake up
i wonder if you remember anything
i stroke your hair as you look at me, falling in love
all over again
and to think i almost lost you, it tears me apart
It's 3 am in the morning and my love is asleep
I watch her for a minute then push her hair from her face
I stroke her arm and she awakes
She looks at my face then closes her eyes
And I wonder what'd it'd have been like if I weren't gay
Would I have been watching a guy and felt the same way?
No, I couldn't love him the same
Something about long hair and brown eyes makes me
Warm inside
The way she says my name, the way it rolls off her lips
Soft voice with a pretty smile, I wouldn't have anything less
They said I wouldn't survive in a world like this
Society would murder me and leave me for dead
But I'd die over and over again just
when the love is gone, where do you run?
my heart is falling apart at the seams
no feeling left inside, it no longer hurts me when you cry
but i still can't take my eyes off of you and i'm not sure why
stuck between love and hate, i'd do anything to know our fate
not wanting to give up, its so hard to let go
my soul is searching for a hint of hope that i can
hold on and keep you close
wipe your tears and touch your face without every
second wanting to escape
cause there's still a part of me that doesn't want
to be free
that'd rather hold your hand than walk away
but i'm getting ready for a breakdown
i've got to get through
I thought we'd be together forever
But it turns out I can't live with you and you
can't live with me either
Our two hearts clash when we fight
Leaving one broken and the other battered and bruised
Loving you, but I just can't take it
My soul won't let me, I've too much pride
My blond hair turning gray, but I'm only 23
Too stressed to even sleep
I thought at least you'd hold me
But your arms are no longer there
At least not that I can feel
Your hands touch my face but they're cold
Where did all of the love go?
You were my best friend but not until the end
I became my own enemy and you slipped further away
Your fingers disent
So exhausted, sometimes I don't feel like I'm alive
I wake up and feel the pressure of the world closing in
Struggling to breathe, I close my eyes again
Another 5 hours of sleep and I'll be alright
Tossing, turning but there's no dreams
Just the nightmares that keep me awake
It's 3am now, where did the light go?
Too dark for the shadows and I'm at peace...
but only for a little while