the sadness of it all

sitting at this desk
my head in my hands and the tears
flowing between them trying to find
their place
music playing all around me but i
can't hear the words
the sound of my pain blaring instead
my head feeling like it's about to bust
i cant take this anymore and i just want to run
but im a prisoner bound by these 4 walls
the only escape being my mind
looking inside i try to find the way, the path
from my heart to that serinty of mine
getting lost among the emotions running
through my veins
i just want to give up and let myself waste away
lay on the floor and die today
take that needle to my eyes and blind myself first
so i wont have to see the torture in them when i
look into that mirror of pain
and the sadness of it all
is i cant bring myself to do it im too scared to fall